Once upon a time......
A long time ago in a land far away.....
it was a dark and stormy night.....
alright, it wasn't a dark and stormy night. In fact it wasn't even a single isolated night. or day. or year. that's why i'm having such a difficult time deciding how to begin. because there wasn't really a beginning, but i sure-as-macaroni hope there's an ending.
my life seems to be a mess of tangled spaghetti at the moment. and not the good kind of spaghetti either, it's the kind that sat too long in the water, so it nasty and water logged and falling apart.
falling apart, my friends.
Firstly there's the whole college shabloodle. y'know, the ol' decide where to apply and then spend too many painful hours working and reworking and adding a story and cutting a paragraph and scratching the whole thing and picking it out of the trash to wipe off the scum and redo it all over again.
very much looking forward to it.
speaking of senior year i am taking four, count them FOUR a.p. classes. yippity skippity. and on top of that i am trying SO VERY hard to change my highschool, which is a pioneering effort by the way. and my principal is little more than passive about it. and i really don't want to upset anyone by doing it, which is a very real possibility since i ran for student government and lost. upsetting people would not do well to encourage a good reputation which apparently is becoming worse and worse seeing as how i got TOILET PAPERED for the first time EVER last night.
this is good for my self esteem.
well anyways that's my life in a nutshell. which fits because i've been acting like a nut lately. but whatever, i'll just sit and stand and walk and talk and sleep and eat and play a little chess, i'll wash and smell and brush my teeth with this annoyingly unyeilding weight because, based on the reflections of people in my life, and specifically the ones i love the most,
i am an insanely inadequate slug trying to take on the world.